Our contact is a contact without hands free telephone. My mobile phone is silent but at night I hear your information, wonder what to do with it and start writing.

I wish I could see you in the eyes like I saw that boxer, that cyclist and that driver in the eyes, so I would be sure that all that I know is true.

Our first contact was a very cold one, but you did not send me away. The daughter of a mother did after I told her she was acting like her mother.

I would love my friends to tell me so, because that would mean that they met my mother. All the friends that I get from now on, will not be able to meet my mother.

They will have to do with the contact like our contact. You came to me and I did not know what was happening as I am not a person that has contact with the outer world.

In my place there is no radio and no television and some people say that I have a simple way of life. And others feel that I got a difficult way of life as nothing is secure.

But that what is secure til others does not mean that it is secure for everybody. You can have millions on your account and nevertheless feel poor and not capable to buy yourself what you need.

War is a time that shows everybody that money does not give the security that allows to be happy. The person that takes chemicals to feel happy, will become totally desperate, when he is not capable to get these chamicals.

The person that needed chemicals in wartime to do the work that he did, may have experienced that those chemicals were no more available and this can have been a reason to stopp living.

Not being able to digest the pain that is in one, can be the reason to stopp life and if the family has an energy that is given to all members that connects them because they die, suicide will not be a rareness in the family.

Members of a family that has suicide as a family energy must be able to desire to live the physical life in happiness and for all those that already died.

War can be the cause of this energy as dead people do not talk. Someone who is afraid to tell who else was a member of the resistance, may kill himself if he is caught, to save the lifes of the others.