You ask me to read the official papers that tell about your family and I wait too long with it. When I want to read them, you take them, read the first line to me and put the papers away. You read this part of the papers soo much and every time you get angry again.
You have not read the part that comes after it. Will you ever read it? You are someone who plays a play, it seems. You try to do what you think that others want from you in stead of trying to feel why you have the needs you have and what needs the rest of the family has.
I wonder why you give the way the house looks like the priority above making your family dinner. I can not understand why the house has to be done now, as you are on your way out.
You prepare to leave this house for two years, maybe more, maybe less, one never knows is what I experienced. One can accept a job and find out after two days that this job is not fulfilling the needs one has to do a good job.
Being a teacher will have to be the job of your heart to do it well and if you want to teach the children of others, what happens with your children? Who is more important? The own family or the guests?
In the family where the guests always were much more important than the members of the own family, the members may not have peace between each other as the attention of the parents was always first on the guests. Than there was the war between the children about who was getting the first attention when the guests did not need it any longer?
The tradition of having a or more rooms to let to guests, can be the reason for a member of this family to let his house be empty when the children have left. He loves his house but does not want to have to change his attitude because of people that pay to be guest.
The guest that does not pay may have to do something to stay or he is welcomed with open arms and his gifts are also accepted with open arms. Not expecting anything will the guest be able to give his gifts without a feeling of guilt or being forced. The child that was forced to be born, will hate to be forced.